Last night, the manfriend and I hiked in the mountains. We made a poor time keeping decision, starting our hike later than we should’ve and we ended up hiking our way back to the car in the dark (thank you, Apple, for putting flashlights on your iPhones). There’s nothing like walking through the wilderness in complete blackness. I was terrified- I saw five scorpions and then fell, opening up an old running wound- so I was fiercely determined to get back to the car. It was a slow climb back down the mountain but I used the thoughts of the Jeep’s safety and comfort to help me conquer the decent. When Steve and I reached the parking lot, I threw my hands up into the air. WE DID IT!
I woke up this morning thinking about last night’s hike. On the way up the mountain, my legs started to hurt. I could feel my runner’s knee coming back. I ran out of water. I got dusty and unbelievably sweaty. But I continued to push forward. At the end of six miles uphill, there was this beautiful waterfall. That was my goal. I wanted to see that damn waterfall. Sometimes, I wish all the goals in my life were that tangible and easy to obtain. For a while, I thought they were. But as my hike taught me yesterday, nothing great is achieved without a lot of hard work.
At the top of the Hunter Creek trail- WE MADE IT!
I have this list of all the things I want to accomplish- Get better at running. Play the violin beautifully. Finally start that investigative blog I wanted to start for years. Sing a band. Wear more poufy dresses. Get my driver’s license… I only started seriously asking myself why I haven’t started this projects. I came up with this list:
I haven’t started these fun, possibly life changing projects because:
- I’m afraid of embarrassing myself and looking stupid.
- I’m afraid of asking for help.
- I’m DEATHLY afraid of failing.
- Sometimes, there just isn’t enough hours in a day.
- I’m lazy and rather spend my day avoiding hard work (procrastination, baby!)
So now, I know what is holding me back from accomplishing the things I really want to do and from living the life I always wanted to live. I think once you have such a list established, you can start breaking down each goal into accomplish-able pieces. Take my blog idea: I have already developed my webpage for it and created a domain name. For it, I have to search for local stories and interview people. Despite being social and a journalist, I’m still get incredibly nervous about interviewing people. I feel like I’m always going to ask the wrong question or receive an answer that I can’t use. Right there, I can see that I’m scared of embarrassing myself and scared of asking for help but these are hurdles that I need to jump over. I know that I conquer these stressors- I just need to try and don’t overthink about the fear and embarrassment.
Richard Branson of Virgin said, There’s no other way to find out whether or not you will be successful other than just doing it. In other words– screw it, let’s do it. You’ll never know what would have happened if you don’t give it a go. And he’s right. There is no better time than right now to make your life great and start something wonderful. We all have fears that we need to slay. If the promise of greatness and self-satisfactory is in the distance, why shouldn’t we risk everything and just go out there and do it?
What are you absolutely dying to do, dear reader? And why haven’t you done it yet?
You can do it! YOU CAN FUCKING DO IT!